Fish eyes (idiom): A scowling and/or menacing look.
I guess this one is about my experience with depression. It's not intentional. It's been so long that I've had to fake smile and fake being ok, that it's gotten hard for me to truly express joy throughout my whole being.
I'm trying to remember how it's supposed to be.
On the upside, my resignation would be effective soon! I'm so excited!